If you are new here and know us IRL, please forgive me if I offend you in any way. I am not going back to take out the little vents about the school, teachers, or birth families of our children, if there are any. If something hurts your feelings, I am sorry. I have felt very misunderstood and defensive many times from your actions or your colleagues. I do know it is not intentional on your part. I know it's not always your fault. It is how I feel, at that time.
I never thought this would be shared with people that know us. For this very reason, I will be a bit more guarded about which child is doing what. I will still be sharing way too much information but I do not want to share who in some instances. It will take time, I will be going back and fixing some of the more embarrassing moments for the kids by making it less obvious who it was.
I just got back from delivering the packets of letters and explanation of what Complex PTSD is and how it affects our lives. The response varied drastically. Most were kind, one began telling me how we had too many kids and were a danger to his family. He tried to get my goat and I felt myself becoming defensive. I back down and tried to explain how we manage. I eventually realized that I was never going to make him understand. He will be looking for reasons to attack us.
The family I really wanted to talk to were not home. I did speak with another bus driver on our street and felt like she understood. It was hard to do. I am glad it is almost over. I will finish up tomorrow night.
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Uh oh...I take it you had another run-in as well. I'm sorry that the anonymity was lost, but, I agree that you need to have a place to vent.
Yikes, I understand. I'm careful about my anonymity and only my sister knows about my blog. It is freeing to be able to talk about things you can't bring up around your closest friends. But I hope you still feel this is a place to vent, or if not, that you have another resource.
Just wanted to let you know I'm a 'stranger' just recently following your blog. I don't know you IRL. But, I'm absolutely amazed by families such as yourselves that can give so much love and give and give and give and then give some more! Life is hard for all of us... harder for some than others... it never seems to make sense how the hard parts get dolled out. Thanks for sharing your life. I'm learning a lot... your experiences are humbling to say the least and I'm thinking about how I may better help humanity. So, thank you!
Tudu - you know where I stand... my blog is only for those I invite because of this... I've been invaded before. I'm waiting for social services to visit again this week.
People who don't live with these kids and give these kids a "stable home" have NO IDEA what they do to each other, to you or how they actually think. They don't recognize when they are being played or manipulated because the kids can present as so sweet and normal. And those idiots who have never walked in your moccasins for one day have no business judging you.
JMHO
My heart goes out to your family. I have read most of your blog. Thanks for taking the risk to provide the love & care that children desperately need.
When Pr.Blog works,sign me up.
Mrs. J knows they can each be strong/brave let Their Voice be heard about their hurtful past.
GA FOSTER MOM Jan Camp
I feel like your blog today was directed at me. I just wanted you to know that I would never change my opinion of you or your children from your blog. I also would never disclose any information that you share in your blog. If anything, I have more compassion, more respect and more admiration to you and your family from your blog.
I feel like I know so much more about you now and consider you a close friend because of your candor in your blog and you know so little about me!
I just hope you know enough about me that I am the type of person that can keep a secret and would never change my judgement on you and your family from past incidents that your family had no control over that still affects you and your children today.
Thanks for trusting me to your blog.
Sage Eyes, several other people have discovered us and a few more have been invited. I have decided not to worry about it and even embrace it. Let the cards fall where they may.
I love your blog for your brutal honesty and your wit. I still think you and your kids are amazing and I hope you continue to blog despite how others feel about what you write. It is your story and your kids story and I thank you for sharing it.
-Melissa
I'm also a "stranger", as well as a teacher. I think that your words are honest, and could be very helpful to those who see different sides of your kids. Keep it up, don't censor too much, and don't worry about feelings getting hurt. Keep it real.
You are amazing and honest and real. I can't believe you haven't compiled all of your knowledge and experience into a book yet! Please don't let others' ignorance scare you from continuing to enrich so many other lives! When I first read this entry I kind of wanted to hug you!! :) and I kind of wanted to punch that stupid neighbor in the face....I hear the same kind of crap about what my EBD students need....grrr!
At least now you know of one person to be guarded with....
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