If you are new here and know us IRL, please forgive me if I offend you in any way. I am not going back to take out the little vents about the school, teachers, or birth families of our children, if there are any. If something hurts your feelings, I am sorry. I have felt very misunderstood and defensive many times from your actions or your colleagues. I do know it is not intentional on your part. I know it's not always your fault. It is how I feel, at that time.
I never thought this would be shared with people that know us. For this very reason, I will be a bit more guarded about which child is doing what. I will still be sharing way too much information but I do not want to share who in some instances. It will take time, I will be going back and fixing some of the more embarrassing moments for the kids by making it less obvious who it was.
I just got back from delivering the packets of letters and explanation of what Complex PTSD is and how it affects our lives. The response varied drastically. Most were kind, one began telling me how we had too many kids and were a danger to his family. He tried to get my goat and I felt myself becoming defensive. I back down and tried to explain how we manage. I eventually realized that I was never going to make him understand. He will be looking for reasons to attack us.
The family I really wanted to talk to were not home. I did speak with another bus driver on our street and felt like she understood. It was hard to do. I am glad it is almost over. I will finish up tomorrow night.