Friday, April 25, 2008

A Little Bad with the Great


No news about the parents. Ruthie had a full blown meltdown and managed to kick me in the boob and neck 3 or 4 times. My finger nail got in the way and instead of breaking off like they usually do it turned inside out. I really wish it would have broken, this was much more painful and I had to suck it up and bend it back. It has turned a funny purple color and is so tender to touch I am not able to hit a key with it. It took several hours to calm her down and I am the only person hurt. Ella cried quite a bit during this episode but all the others were just irritated at her timing.

Now on to the great. I witnessed with my own eyes a miracle, true remorse from Cyr. There is no doubt this was sincere, it was her own words, and there were LOTS of tears. I brought up the parents pending arrests and asked her what are the differences and similarities between what she did and what they did. I waited patiently and almost moved on when I realized she wasn't talking b/c she was choked up. She was completely confused and surprised so she wasn't sure what to do. She let me hold her and she managed to speak between sobs that what she did was worse b/c the kids trusted her to take care of them. She admitted she resents them (nothing new) but she feels bad for it. Of course there was a lot more but you get the idea. She feels like crap! Yeah!!!!! That officially goes on the list of things I never thought I would say about my children. I couldn't be more proud of her, she has so far to go but this is was 100 steps in the right direction. I can't wait for therapy tomorrow. She just came out of her room b/c she forgot to hug me, someone has possessed my child.

2 comments:

Karen said...

That is so fantastic!!!

junglemama said...

Hi. Just found your blog. I am looking forward to reading more. We have 10 children and we are not done adopting either. :)