Friday, October 09, 2009

A New Home

Like many others, I simply love reading other's blogs. It comforts me to see so many other mothers struggling with the same issues we face every day. One blog speaks of a young boy that I connect with my very own angry boy. I think the world of this mother. Please go read, provide support to this family, and help if you can.

My kids are having a tough time wrapping their little heads around prison. They feel guilty, happy, sad, safe, and angry. They don't seem to be able to focus on just 1 or 2 an hour, they are flopping all over the place. Lots of tears last night when we told them he was found guilty. We decided against explaining that some were not guilty. It would be too confusing and they might feel like they had not been believed or failed in some way. They didn't have many questions. They cried from dinner to bed time. We still have some in our room. My son, in his usual fashion, screamed, fought, threatened, and destroyed things. After that he crawled in my arms and squalled for half an hour. He wishes, like many of us, that it never happened, they had been able to be good parents so he could live with them, and he didn't have to be so violent like his father. He is terrified he will do the same things he did. So am I. If I am not careful, I can see myself sitting in the courtroom on the other side of the room supporting one of my children at the defense table. We also didn't go into a lot of details about sentencing. We are not sure what it will be so we do not want to get their hopes up or crush them any further.

3 comments:

Corey said...

Tudu,

You know I have always loved you, always respected you. Thank you, sister for your help for my son. The fact that you would help us in the midst of your own family's largest suffering... I am moved beyond words.

Love.

roztime said...

Just wanted to let you know I've been thinking about you & your family through your recent chaos. (Chaos? Upset? Life? Not sure how to call it.)
I think you are one helluva mom, and I look up to you so much (can I be like you when I grow up? :).
-Roz

Tudu said...

Corey, I added it to my FB, too. I hope it helps. Let me know if there is anything I can do. Anything.

Roztime, you made me giggle. Thank you.