Today my son turned 9. He is still wearing a size 6 and looks like your average 1st grader. He has had a good week and even worked hard in AT. He confessed he is seeing things lately. More accurately, people. He was terrified he would have to go away like Patches did so he has been afraid to tell us. I knew he was hearing more things and that they were changing from simple voices calling his name to people running toward him or chasing him. The other night he got up to go to the restroom and I remember thinking he didn't stay long enough to use it but never moved b/c he ran back to bed. Turns out he saw a little boy sitting in the tub playing and it freaked him out so bad he ran back to bed and peed there. It saddens me we still aren't at the point he can turn to me for help.

Patches had a Brain Q this morning and we will get the results in 2 weeks. She goes to the neurologist tomorrow to see if she has caused any brain damage from all her head banging. She also tested positive for Strep again. Good times, people.

Things are settling down here. I am seeing a new man replace my DH. He took this very seriously and is really getting into the program. He has helped me more in the last week than he has our entire marriage. He is connecting with us, with me. The kids are aware he is attending meetings and we explained in simple terms what had happened. They are all handling it great. They do not understand why he is not sleeping in our bed and are jealous he gets to sleep on our sofa. He is suffering happily, all he wanted was to be back here in the house. He even offered to sleep in his reptile room.

Frankee called me today. She is using drugs and with needles. I am so sad for her and her children. She wants to be a better parent and can't seem to stay off the drugs. She has a warrant for her arrest for not paying child support. She is thinking of turning herself in and sending Shyanne here for the Summer. She is always welcome but I wish she would just stay clean long enough that the child wouldn't have to move so often. Shyanne would have a ball here with the kids.