At Last

We are home. Her MRI was normal and she didn't have any seizures during the 24 hour EEG. We are supposed to keep an eye on her and report ANY unusual activity. A whole lot of suffering for no answers.

I am struggling with my feelings for Kiera's mother. I am mad at her. I don't want to be around her. She stole from us over New Years and I know she is still using. She denies everything and makes herself the victim of everyone. They are all out to get her. She has power over us b/c it is just LG and that makes me mad, too. I never felt this way about Emma's mother. She had drug issues but she took responsibility for it. She made bad choices but never stole from us. I could trust her completely sober or not. She was honest about her sobriety. If I was unhappy about something, I could tell her and she would listen. This young woman likes the control. She is asking for money to get a ride here to see the baby. I would have offered Nikki but am offended when she asked. I guess I could see Nikki was a good parent down deep, she may have been lacking skills but she had a good heart. I can't see that in Jessica. I see the neglect and the excuses. I feel the fear of losing her b/c she gets mad at me. She told Nikki she would never sign away her rights, she plans on leaving the baby here until she turns 18 but I can't be her Mom. Kiera calls me Mommy b/c the other kids do. Jessica goes out of her way to call me Rachel after she asked what she calls me. The baby has no idea who Rachel is. Now she is asking to keep her over night again. I talked to her Gma last night and she refuses to let her come there b/c she stole the last time she was there. It will not go over well when I tell her no.

Meanwhile back at the ranch, the kids gave Rosa a very hard time while I was gone. I suppose you could have guessed that, right? Ella and Emma were the only two that behaved. The others lied about their meds, wore inappropriate clothes to school, refused to clean up their rooms, threw fits, broke things, refused to do homework, refused to participate in class, and wet the bed. In other words, they treated her better than they treat me. LOL

I am glad to be back. I missed them so much. I am forcing Rosa to start walking with me. We both need the exercise and she is training for something that I will wait to post about. Anyone feel like cleaning? I have an entire house to keep you busy.