Sunday, December 14, 2008

I Feel Like I Have Been in a Car Accident

My entire body is sore and things hurt that I had no idea could hurt. All this from a restraint of Patches in the AT's office. I was punched in the head and then she pulled out a lovely chunk of my hair. SHe continued to pinch my inner thigh for the entire hour. I was scratched on the hands and face and bitten on my left hand. All my muscles in my arms, legs, neck, back, and stomach ache. I couldn't hold a child today if I had to. My hand is swollen and aching from the bite and scratches. Too bad this is only one of 3 major incidents in the last 4 days. You may wonder why she went off like that, the AT asked if she really wanted to go live somewhere else like she told the police, hospital staff, and me (for days). She kindly told her that it was an option if she truly needed to and that it would be a really nice hospital. She also mentioned she could join their Pee Club for Girls, this normally would have had Patches in stitches. SHe usually enjoys the outlandish comments from her AT and I. Not yesterday. She jumped up and rammed her body into the wall causing a full body impression in the sheetrock. It didn't just dent, it broke all the way through. SHe shoved the sofa accross the room and then began chasing the AT and punching her in the stomach and head. The real problem was that the AT expected to help me get her into a restraint. I am used to doing it alone. I couldn't get ahold of her and flip her b/c the AT had her legs. SHe ended up on her back and had full access to attack me. I will be asking her to back off next time. I appreciate her trying but I can't let her again. My DH has the same problem, he just gets in my way.

When we got home Patches was calm and kind. I had to lay down b/c myhead was throbbing. Rosa went out to check on the kids and they were gone. Patches had lead Eddie, Alyssa, Michael, and Gia into the woods. Normally they play in OUR woods. This time she wandered too far and got lost. The bad thing was she is normally very careful with Gia, this time she left her in the woods. This is not like Patches. SHe was found walking in the street with Alyssa more than a 1/2 mile from home. No remorse.

Her AT called to check on us about the time they returned home. She wants us to hospitalize her. I begged her to wait and she reluctantly gave us one more try. If Patches continues to act so dangerously we will not have a choice, she will insist. After seeing her rage, she is concerned for my safety. She feels Patches is fully capable of killing me when she is out of control. She was very surprised at the level Patches goes every time she gets upset. Her fit in her office was normal for Patches it wasnt normal in the way we held her. She feels Patches is very dangerous and was upset that she didn't understand how serious all of our kids rages were. Our level of comfort is so much higher than the average family she deals with. Patches is high risk for a personality disorder, it can't be dx'd until she is 18. That alone makes me cry.

I am trying to get to Thursday's post as quick as I can.

6 comments:

Shea said...

I am not only worried for you but for the other children as well. You have to sleep sometime, and what happens if she goes off in the middle of the night. I know this is none of my business, but she is not safe and none of you are with her in the home. I will be praying hard that she does not kill any of you. There is a fine line between saving her and saving all of your children. To me, it is not worth the risk.

Maia said...

Sorry you got beat up so much. I hear you about people trying to help restrain a kid being more of a hindrance than a help sometimes. It helps to regularly restrain the same kid with the same person but that's not usually possible. Hoping Patches calms down a bit so she doesn't have to be hospitalized. Glad your AT is getting a more true view of what you deal with every day. You are amazing! Hang in there.

Lindsay said...

So sorry this is happening just now. Hope you are feeling better soon and can get Patches some effective help.

The Bus Driver said...

i totally can sympathize with the pain. I've had to hold children in restraints in various jobs i've worked. often times a restraint would happen at least 8-12 times a day, often lasting anywhere from 3-20 minutes

Carmine Crayon said...

I'm sorry your family is going through this right now. You all are in my prayers. In the beginning, I really thought it would be Cyr that would cause the most trouble and end up in an RTC. Patches has always had issues different than the other kids, but I thought she was more internal with it. Lately though, its been scary. Keep us updated...

Nichole said...

You have amazing strength. I think that if anyone is going to be able to help her it would be you, but you also have to know that you can only do so much. How sad.