A lot has happened and most I won't be able to blog about but I will update some things.
I am still sick! I am so tired of being sick I want to scream, in fact, I have tried but since my voice is so soft, no one cared. I know I should take care of myself and all that but I have too much going on to slow down. It is getting better but it is taking forever.
Patches is having a really hard time. Now that we know and have asked her to tell us when she hears it, she is in full panic mode. We remain calm and comforting but she thinks people are trying to take her. I am not sure if I blogged about having to call the police a few weeks ago b/c some guy was in our woods watching the kids but she told the AT today, she doesn't think he was really there. She is admitting to more and more instances that she questions were real or not. She is having a very hard time determining what is real. So far the voice is a child's voice. It's not in her head, it sounds like they are next to her. She is also hearing people outside her window rustling around trying to get to her. When we show her no one is there she still can't believe it. She becomes extremely agitated.
After speaking to her birth family about other family members hearing or seeing things they fessed up they have several people that hear and see ghosts. Now, I am open to that idea but in this case I believe their family members were full blown loons and not sensitive. They spoke to themselves and were never able to keep a job, they also refused to seek medical attention claiming God was talking to them.
We had a great session today with the AT and we helped Patches feel a little more in control. I am to contact her P doctor Monday and insist he reconsider her meds. Risperdal should be helping with the voices but it isn't. We were instructed to take her to the ER if she heard anything negative or became upset enough that we can't calm her. She was so afraid the AT wouldn't believe her and her demeanor changed completely when it was discussed. The AT is very worried. She feels it is stress induced due tot the recent trial.
Ruthie has been sitting in a pile of dirty clothes in my laundry room for several hours. I am so glad she isn't attacking me that I decided to pretend she is outside having a great time.
Cyr has been very nurturing towards Patches and become protective. I told her last night about how great it is to see her smile and laugh. She tooted so loud last night right next to her Dad that he had to leave the area. She laughed until there were tears. Most parents would be disgusted, I am filled with joy.
We are all enjoying the break from Ava and miss her sometimes.
Ella took a nap with me today and made sure to turn over each time she had to cough so I could feel it on my face. She is so lucky she is cute.
The AT's had offered to pay for my stuff to teach Love and Logic, now they are back peddling a bit and want to wait. They are closing on a new building at the end of the month and things are really hectic for them. It sucks for me b/c money is extremely tight and I need to bring in income. I hate it when people snivel about being broke b/c aren't we all? Our issue is that my DH works really hard but only gets paid occasionally b/c he is self employed. I have worked really hard to find numerous facilities that want me to teach it, I just have to have the curriculum to get started.
I signed up for Wish Upon a Hero hoping someone would help but so far they suggested grants that I do not qualify for and some scam. How much do you think I could get for a beautiful blonde 9 yr old that only attacks her Mom and herself? I am thinking $730 is a bargain. Any takers? LOL We have already sold all my DH's extra tools and anything we can to survive the last few months but now I am thinking of putting him on a street corner somewhere to see if he can earn a bit of cash there. He has lost about 70# and is looking hot.