she believes Ruthie is being truthful. She asked her many questions and I explained what I had told Ruthie. She is not going to diagnose her with anything but will be seeing her every month until we figure it out. She sees Patches and Michael every month already so she will just join them. I am still not sure how I feel about it.
Patches still just sits there and stares the doctor down. She doesn't speak or blink. It is weird. We adjusted the meds for Ruthie, Patches, and Michael. We are going to try to split the antipsychotic up a bit more to help them cope with the afternoon hallucinations. I pray this works, I can only dance so fast to keep them from completely flipping out every afternoon.
I am concerned about Michael. He is really struggling to remain in control. He is slipping away and there is nothing I can do. I feel like we are watching his life blow up in slow motion. I keep reminding myself that just last Fall Patches was extremely out of control and now she has a light on. She was so flat for so long and now we see laughter and smiles. I will admit they are not always normal sounds that come from her. She is beginning to have a weird screech to it and it happens when nothing is funny at all. She is laughing at her hallucinations. I am glad they are entertaining but I wish they wouldn't happen in public places. LOL
I will admit I had a hard time holding back tears on the way home from the doctor today. We had to stop by the store for groceries and unfortunately I had to tote 5 kids with me. Patches, Ruthie, Michael, Ava, and Emma. They barely held it together. I had to focus so hard on keeping my cool and keeping their attention that I almost just left it all in the aisle. It's not that they were terrible, it's that they were stressed from the doctor. We had to stop to find the restroom 3 times. I mean really, come on. I won't make that mistake again.