Wednesday, August 11, 2010

She Can't Live In A Family, I Tried

I didn't see this coming. Charges are going to be filed. I informed her I will be sure she feels the full effects of her choices. When she leaves for treatment, I don't think we will allow her to return to our home. It is not out of spite. I haven't even thought through what we would or could do. I just know she can't be here anymore. I can't believe I feel this way. I can't believe she could do this to our family, our children. I don't know what we will do. She has made bad choices but this is a whole new ball game. I am looking forward to peace and quiet around here so I can learn to live with the guilt of making her leave. I thought I could forgive everything. She found the one thing I can't. I hate that she tried so hard to find it. I hate that she has to leave. I hate that she doesn't care.

I can't share the details. I can promise another investigation will follow the report tomorrow. I hope we all make it out of this together.

16 comments:

Sheri said...

So very sorry, thinking of you tonight. Praying.

Ashley said...

So sorry, Tudu...So sorry.

GB's Mom said...

Praying...

Kelly said...

So sorry. Will be praying for you and your whole family. You are an amazing mom, truly amazing.

Lisa said...

Too many of us find ourselves in this position. Giving and hoping and praying and loving kids who we truly believe can turn that corner and honestly be part of our families forever. Sometimes mental illness swallows those dreams and we have to come to a peace and understanding that we have done EVERYTHING we can and try to protect ourselves and everyone else. I don't know why kids "go there" with accusations, I grieve the fact that a few of my kids immediately jump to that and try to hold us hostage with threats. My daughter threatened to make false allegations the other day. I told her counselor the next day and her response was, "well, you know she has to win at any cost don't you?". That was chilling to me. I knew this about my dd, but I guess I was in denial about what "any cost" could mean to her. Rest assured that the truth will prevail and you HAVE done EVERYTHING to give her a family to live with. I am so sorry you have another ordeal ahead of you. You really deserve a break.

Integrity Singer said...

call me.
xxoo
((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))

Barb G said...

I am so sorry you are going through this. My heart hurts for all of you. Praying for your family, and especially for your hurting heart.

Lindy said...

I am so very sorry. I am praying that the fallout be contained.

motherissues said...

I'm so sorry to hear this, Tudu.

jwg said...

I have no sage advice. You are incredibly strong and will get through this. Just take a deep breath and hang in there.

Jodi said...

I'm so sorry to hear that one of your children couldn't respond to love, structure, and family you offered her. Healing thoughts are heading your way.

Abby said...

=( Sending prayers and good thoughts your way.

Brandy-new rad mom said...

Aww man I hate to hear this. I am so sorry your family is going through this right now. Many prayers to your family. You have to do what you have to do to keep everyone safe. I wish it wasn't like this :(

Penelope said...

I feel your pain w the difficult tough love choices that you have to make. Some kids can only learn about consequences the hard way. Praying for you to have peace in your decisions. God bless -penelope

FosteringDreams said...

I'm so sorry to read this. You'll all be in my prayers.

Marthavmuffin said...

I know things will work out as they are supposed to.

God bless you and yours