Tuesday, May 26, 2009

The Shit has Hit the Fan

When I say I had a bad weekend, it doesn't even begin to describe how it went. I also discovered that my son has been touching my grandson. We are all reeling from that. We never suspected a thing. My gson is clueless that the "game" was wrong or hurtful. I reported it but am still waiting to hear back from the AT. We have put some things in place for their safety.

I am way too comfortable with this crap. I am tired of being the only sane one in my family. I am tired of keeping things together for EVERYONE. Things are going to change in that area. I am 38 years old and today is my 14th wedding anniversary. I will find a way to be happy. I will keep my children safe. I will survive and I will drag them with me, kicking and screaming is fine. I will be back soon, give me a minute to gather myself.

29 comments:

Jensboys said...

No words, just hugs and prayers. Absolutely have no idea what to say that brings you comfort.

imbookingit said...

I'm sorry you have so much on your plate. Hang in there. I'll send positive thoughts your way.

motherissues said...

Tudu, I'm so sorry. You have so much on your plate right now. I hope you get the support you need and can get things stabilized and moving in the right direction. You'll be in my thoughts.

Nichole said...

I'm so sorry. Keeping you in my thoughts.

Lisa said...

I'm so glad you called but I am so sorry about everything that is going on. It bites a big one. Know that I am thinking of you all the time and hoping that you will have peace.

I'm here for you anytime. My phone rings just as good at 3 AM as it does at 3 PM.
Just in case you haven't been told today....I love you.
me

Me said...

I'm soooo sorry! Praying for you all at this difficult time.

Lorie Hope said...

Wow..Tudu. You need a vacation, love! You really do. I am sending you love and all of my wishes for a better...well, life. You DESERVE IT...you deserve everything good in life and I am praying that you get it now!!!!

God bless you. I am here if you want to vent!!!!

I will send you an email with my phone number and if you wanna just vent or talk...I'm here!

Ashley said...

Praying for all of you, Tudu

Cupcake Mama said...

You and your family are constantly in my thoughts (especially you). I'm sorry that all these things keep happening and I don't understand it. I hope things start to shift for you and that better days are already heading your way.

FosteringDreams said...

Maybe this is an odd time for my first comment, but, I started reading about a year ago and finally caught up to real time a few months ago. Throughout it all I've been continually impressed with all you manage to find a way through.

It sounds like something cataclysmic must have happened and I hope there's an even better solution than you've found so far, but, I know (from everything you've said so far) that you have the ability to get through this.

(The piece that lead me to comment was the suggestion that the kids don't know anything. When my parents split up, I was 4 and they didn't tell us. My dad was around in the evenings, etc. But, I DID know. I think it would have been easier to have been told. You know your kids best, but, as a person who has been in that place, I'd encourage you to consider telling them something.)

Abby said...

Oh gosh, I'm so sorry to hear things aren't going well in your world. =( No advice or anything else, just sending prayers and positive vibes your way...

Kimberly said...

I'm so sorry.
I will keep you, your husband and all of your children in my prayers.

skirbo said...

I'm so sorry Tudu. Hugs and prayers coming your way. Such a hard year for so many people.

Sarah

Perspective RAD said...

I'm so sorry. Don't give up on you.

AnnMarie said...

::hugs:: We're all thinking of you.....

Wendy said...

Take all the time you need and I will be sending virtual hugs your way every 30 seconds!!!!

Lyn said...

I'm so sorry that this is happening, your family and especially you are in my prayers. I don't know what else to say excpet that you're in my prayers.

Thandi said...

(((Tudu)) I'm sorry. I wish things could miraculously become all 'normal' again. Whatever is going on, I realy hope you come out of it with your head held up high, knowing that you did your best.

Casey said...

Tudu...I am nobody of any importance. Just a lurker who loves your family and you. I am sorry for your struggles, and want you to know that I am sending all my good wishes and prayers to all of you.

Laurie

Carmine Crayon said...

I am so sorry... I will be praying for your family. I'm hoping what your husband did, did not involve the children. Not that doing something to you is any better. I knew a nice little family with one daughter. Seemed like a perfect family, perfect home. One day, when their daughter was about 10, the mother came to church without her husband. Then we never saw him in church again. When we asked, she said "he turned out to not be who she thought he was" and she left him. Apparently, we was addicted to porn. The details must have been pretty bad, b/c they were peas in a pod. It was sad.

Jenn said...

Longtime lurker, and so sorry to hear that you are having such trials. I will be thinking of you, and wishing you strength, courage, and peace in the coming months.

Lindsay said...

Sorry things are bad just now. Sending you good wishes.

Anonymous said...

Hello, I have been reading (lurking) your blog for about 12 months,I hope you don't mind. I am sending positive vibes to you from Tasmania, in Australia. you are an inspiration to me and what you do on a daily basis is AMAZING. GOOD LUCK and GOD BLESS YOU. Georgie

Anonymous said...

You are doing an amazing job!! god bless you Georgie from Tasmania, Australia

Sharon said...

Wow. That is some stuff to deal with. You sound so tired and withdrawn and I am sorry. :( I'm a "virtual stranger" but I read your blog every time you update and applaud what you do. I could never handle all you have been through. That is some powerful love.. I pray that your kids realize it someday. Hang in there.

Marthavmuffin said...

Tudu I think of you almost every day and am amazed at the strength and resiliance you show. You are in my prayers. I'm sorry you keep having so many challenges.

Isa said...

I'm sorry Tudu. Hugs and prayers your way. You'll be in my thoughts!

Maia said...

That sucks. Take care.

FosterAbba said...

I know I'm coming into this way late -- I've been doing nothing but work and I'm behind on blogs, but I'm sorry just the same.