Wednesday, June 15, 2011

I Can't Believe I'm Back!

I'm not sure how this will work out but I'm hoping the smoke has cleared and I can rejoin the world. I have missed this part of my life, you all. Even sitting here now brings up a lot of emotions that are hard to shove back.

A lot has happened. I won't go into much here but I will say that Emma's siblings are gone. There has been no contact. We have tried. We are devastated and can hardly speak of them without tears. I am filled with anger and resentment at the behavior of our county and theirs. Many lies were told and the stress it put on us was almost too much.

All of my kids are back home except Michael. He is still in RTC and showing his rear for them. They have scheduled his release twice and he blew it. They are unable to help him and are running out of ideas. Both of his therapists believe we have more impact on him here and do much more for him than the many professionals at his disposal. It will be tough but we aren't being given many choices. We will manage.

Ruthie returned after Christmas. We had to put many things in place for it to happen safely but she is working hard. She has bad days but she isn't hurting anyone. She feels remorse and is openly talking for the first time about her feelings. She has a VERY long way to go. She can't be trusted. She may never be again.

Patches was only in RTC briefly. She is doing beautifully. Seriously, I never thought we would be where we have been with her in the last 6 months. Amazing. Then school let out and the crazy girl took back over. We increased her meds again yesterday at her request.

The twins and Emma are thrilled to be out of school.

Kiki is my little ht mess. I may cut my ears off if she doesn't stop crying soon. The pdoc thinks it is BiPolar and ADHD with a little anxious attachment thrown in for fun. He laughed at me when he told me. He insists I am the luckiest adoptive mother in the world to have found so many with BiPolar and attachment issues.

I can't wait to tell you all about our adventures. We have one of my long time readers and now Soul Sister here with her family visiting. I hear her cooking dinner so I must run.

17 comments:

Sher said...

Sooooo glad you are back!

J. said...

Love you! I am jealous that you have someone there to visit as well.

Brett said...

Glad you're back.

-NJmom

Kelly said...

OMGoodness. I am so thrilled you are back. Seriously. I think of you so often. I know I don't know you in real life or any more than just your blog but I seriously admire you beyond words and am so thrilled to hear you made it through. Welcome back!!!!

GB's Mom said...

Love you- glad you're back :)

Ashley said...

Welcome back!!

Last Mom said...

Yay for blogging again and for Soul Sister time!

The Bus Driver said...

i missed you so much! glad you're back!!!!!! look forward to reading your blog every day!

waldenbunch said...

Welcome back!

Emma said...

Yay! So glad to hear from you. I've been thinking of you often.
-Emma

Kate said...

SO happy to see you back! Your family encourages me more than words can express.

AmyAnne said...

Welcome back!!!

Fighting for my Children said...

I missed you and had wondered how u were doing. Welcome back!

r. said...

Welcome back!

Meg said...

Welcome back!

Barb G said...

Woohoo! Welcome back to BlogLand. (((hugs)))

Mothering4Money said...

Welcome back to blog land. You were missed.